Type A is for Anxious

Let me tell you a funny story. Once upon a time, I thought I was a type-B personality. Now, if you actually knew me, you would probably be laughing hysterically right about now.

Yes, it’s true. I thought I was a laid back, go with the flow, true Californian gal. Maybe once upon a time, I was less restricted and care-free, but think I was always a far cry from type-B. I’m from California, and I may have a mother earth side to me, but not planning something…not knowing what to do next…that is just not me.

One day, sometime during or after college, I finally face up to the facts that I was and am totally type-A.

Here are just a few of the facts that helped me face up to my type-A-ness:

  • I like lists.  I know mom, after years of making fun of you, I have finally surrendered myself to the fact that I love a list. You know what I love more than making a list? Crossing things off said list. Oooh, the satisfaction. No words can explain.
  • I like a schedule. I like to know what I’m doing and when. Oh, and I don’t like to be late for what I am supposed to be doing. If I’m not 5 minutes early, then consider me late.
  • I don’t sit still well. My husband is always yelling at me to “just sit down for 5 minutes!”. If I’m not doing something, I feel lazy or like I’m wasting time. Multitasking is in my blood.
  • I’m an event/meeting planner. Yeah, enough said.

When you are a type-A, anxious, control freak it can be a bit hard to deal with change. You can imagine how my mind must have been reeling when I learned we would be moving to TN.

Where will we live? What are the areas? How will we know if it’s a good place? I need to look at Craigslist ASAP! What will I do? Do I still want to be in events? I need to update my resume! How will I make friends? When will we move? What moving company should we use? Do they have gyms there? Will we be able to buy tofu? Is there a Whole Foods? Where will I get my almond butter? When should I quit work? Do I try to keep working for my company now? Should we have a garage sale? When should we have it? I need to buy little sticky circles! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

You get the picture. Needless to say, Xanax works wonders! As does yoga, spin classes, and repeating “you’re good enough, you’re smart enough, and gosh darn-it…people like you”.

The good thing is that we went down to Tennessee, found a place, explored the area and I’m feeling a lot better about things. Sure, I still don’t know what the heck I am going to do there, but I have to remember to breath deep and trust that everything will work itself out. It always does, right? And if all else fails (like any good type-A personality), I have a backup plan: making moonshine in our tub!

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One thought on “Type A is for Anxious

  1. Tom says:

    You are right! It will all work out, and if it doesn’t…. in ten years it won’t make a difference! luv ya…

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